Normally, I can sit and type 25 things out that in retrospect don't even matter or possibly not make any sense either. So as I posted in my other blog...been 2 days now after a heavy 8 days of booze. I hung it up on purpose. bad road, that could only get worse if i didn't stop the ride!
My brain has to learn how to function again normally without the booze for a while. my body needs to recoup. I have started to workout slowly and I am keeping my meditation and samaya practices on the forefront instead of forgetting them altogether. I need to build up my muscles again, especially my organs, to be able to withstand any shit I give them later in life, but for now, for a long while...this weak body, is going to improve slowly and get strong again!
So 2 days feels good. I sat 15 minutes ago or so staring at my computer screen going, wow...I am kinda bored and no, don't want a beer, but it's weird to not want that beer. or have been reaching for a third or fourth by now.
I realized another thing recently. A LOT of people in my life are completely full of shit. It's not even being mean, or not seeing the good BuddhaNature that lies within them. It's just fact. It amazes me, the amount of people that can look at you in the face and just boldly lie about shit that doesn't even matter...I am trying to not lie about shit anymore as much as possible. I wish i'd have listened to my parents when they told me, one lie makes another.
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