so i accomplished a lot today

but fuck am i tired now.  i am a bit buzzed and i think it's cos i didn't eat much yet today since i stayed so busy.  debating on calling people to hook up and go out or not.  whatever, i am already buzzed, no need to get wasted, which would be what happens...but then the schizophrenic side of me disagrees and says, it will be fine, just go asshole.

man i sometimes wish i was schizo, things would make so much more sense.

pulled from both arms, burned at both ends of the candlestick.  healthy or buzzed, yoga or sleep, meditation or tv, so many choices...it's a constant inner turmoil.  i wish i had some turmoil to listen to. hmmm, time for harder music and a shower, call it a day, stop the mental non-sense.